Saturday, April 7, 2012
Finding my sunny place
At just shy of her 89th birthday, she is now dealing more with a failing heart, and unfortunately, a feeling of the hourglass emptying. It saddens me so to see her have no desire to get out of bed; she's definitely capable, just won't. And so, she peers out the window of her room to any activity that captures her keen eyes. Her mind is still pretty sharp, but her soul is slowly resting away. There will be no more letters, written in her beautiful longhand to me about the steady family she grew so plentifully; no words of the flowers that bloom by her hand; no more conversations over hand stitching an heirloom embroidery piece together.
This visit also brought together my Dad and I in a way that we haven't been. As he has taken the full responsibility of caring for Grandma, he visits her daily at her new assisted living home and tends to her every need. All this along with that of his wife who is continually battling bone cancer and his own heart problems. It's a daunting job, but one that he does with as much love and compassion as I've ever witnessed. It is a side that, I guess I knew was there, but have never really been 'grown up' enough to understand.
And so I ask you to think today about those that you love and remember a memory of something that will make you smile. The memories are there for all of that if you dig deep, and there is always one to reflect on that can lighten your load, at least for a moment.